Current mood:

okay

the season has changed........
so friday night we won. that was GREAT. i went out to eat with katie, lindsey, jenna hedge, and my sister... then we dropped katie and lindsey off... and went to jenna brammer's house. aww... we got there right as mitch and stephen were leaving... i miss mitch so much. yea. we all went and played ding-dong-ditch at this girl from ICA who's boyfriend was over... oh... how... fun... not. whatever. so we went back to the house and just like... hung out... then austin and kylie left and austin dropped kylie off at her car at walgreens, caroline, jenna, and courtney and i left a few minutes later and met kylie at my house. we watched this stupid movie called clifford... the guy creeped me out. so me and kylie got bored and went up to my room and talked for like 2 hours. which was nice, because i haven't talked to her in FOREVER. it's so weird. we used to be like... unseperable... now we know nothing about each other. i guess time changes. i've missed her. SOOO we went to sleep around 4

the next morning we woke up... and talked for like 2 more hours... in which we had to shut my door because caroline, courtney, and jenna (or should i say... "yolanda, nancy, and [i wanna say] matilda?") were downstairs yelling at each other at the top of their lungs... acting like they were old women. strange, but strangely hilarious. that went on for close to an hour. we all took our showers, kylie went out to eat with jami while courtney got ready... and they left. jenna was at our house for a while later... and around 4 my parents took me to indianapolis to the home show. caroline went to jenna's.

so. on the way to indianapolis... i think i cried more, and harder, than i've cried in a lonnnnggg time. i think i just broke. i was fine, i guess... until my mom started talking about graduation. i was still fine... then the conversation progressed on to college. both of my parents were telling me "how much i was going to LOVE Bob Jones, and how i would have a date probably every friday and saturday night, and how i would make all of these amazing friends, and how i would have soooo much independence... blahh blah blahhh..." and the further the conversation went... the worse it got. finally... i cracked. and to make it worse... my mom kept looking at me. i had to tell her not to look at me. i HATE it when people watch me cry. so about the dating thing. i told them i didn't want to date. at least for a long time. and my dad started talking about how he hated my past experiences, because he feels like i'll never trust anyone again... which ripped open a whole other wound. all the while i was trying to put my makeup on... and my stupid tears got in the way. GAHHHH... it was ridiculous.

so that was over. and we went to the home show, and it was great. THEN WE WENT TO QDOBAAA!!!!! mmmmm... made the whole night worth it.

and then i went home.

and then of course church today...
which brings me to the present.
good night...